Busybee, Busy Me

So I really thought that after my wedding day I would be the most happiest doing absolutely nothing. I imagined myself lounging on our beautiful white couch in our brand new condo watching LOST. Yeah I know... why LOST? Because one night, when I was completely stressed out with a kazillion things to do, a two-hour LOST recap episode came on. I was INSTANTLY hooked! Maybe it was because I was looking for something, ANYTHING to distract me from all the busy I had in my life... something I could use to procrastinate. I layed on my bed, found a comfortable position and did not move for the next two hours. It was one of the most non-productive, most enjoyable two hours of my life at the time. So yes, I fantasized about buying all of the LOST season DVDs and having a complete LOST marathon at home. That was how I wanted to spend my first few days[?], weeks[?] of my married life... to completely lose myself [no pun intented] and engrosse myself within this TV show.

Ok, back to real life. I have not yet watched the LOST season DVDs. The only TV I've watched this summer is really Big Brother and then more recently The Hills. Other than that I don't really have any shows right now that interest me. I watched Survivor - China tonight. I am curious if Ashley the wrestler will actually survive. She didn't seem as up there as I thought she would... considering her personality as a professional wrestler and all. I think I'd like to get into CSI Las Vegas this season, because of the Miniature Killer. Other than that, I have no clue on any of the new shows because for some reason I have no interest to get more into watching TV.

Surprisingly, instead of embracing the fact that I have absolutely nothing to do, I am finding myself quickly getting bored. Not of married life: we are still having fun with learning to play house and learning to cook. [Thanks Dad for the quick lesson over the phone on how to make a tasty dish out of cabbage. We still need to go over how to cut up the round cabbage into SQUARES.]

But my boredness has blossomed into a type of restlessness. I NEED to do SOMETHING! Yeah, imagine my surprise when i figured that one out. I actually found myself seriously contemplating what was wrong with me. I have absolute freedom to do nothing, and yet I am complaining? The answer is yes. I have come to the conclusion that I am the type of person that needs to be doing something... most of the time. As a friend said to me today 'You are a CONTROL freak'... and as he said that I thought to myself, 'Why yes, yes I am'. And there's nothing wrong with that.. most of the time.

So, since my AHA! moment, I have started a new course towards my HR certificate, I have registered for, fundraised for and campaigned for my friends to join the CIBC Run for the Cure on Sept 30, I am almost serious about running for Board of Directors in my condominium, and I am thinking of starting my own Toastmasters group. Did I mention I am constantly reading two books at a time and have now officially run out of books to read?

And yet... I can't shake that feeling of restlessness. I need to something, ANYTHING!

... hmmm.. should I get a dog?!?